I started off this morning with a slightly better voice, which I attributed to my normal “morning voice” along with the fact that I have a little bit of a cold. This makes my voice go into a different vocal range than normal and I’ve had this happen before, where it temporarily masks the underlying spasmodic dysphonia.
Here’s my voice sample from the morning:
As you can hear, not too bad. What I didn’t know was that the Botox was either just starting to kick in, or about to kick in because by about 11:00 this morning, I noticed that my voice was changing. It went from being “spasmodic” to just being “raspy” or “weak”. It took me a few hours to believe that the spasms were gone, because I’ve had stretches where my voice smooths out and I have what I call my “breakthroughs” where my voice sounds pretty decent. But inevitably, these breakthroughs only last several minutes, not several hours. So as I went through my day and started receiving positive feedback from my co-workers, I didn’t want to jinx it by saying the Botox was working.
Lo and behold, as the day went on, I continued to experience the same voice, without the spasms. I must say it was a very good feeling, even though my voice is not back 100%, just to be able to speak with no breaks or “strangled” sound to my voice. I was able to use the phone, I was able to have lengthy conversations with my co-workers, and basically I came out of my shell a bit today.
Here is a voice sample from the evening, where you can hear the raspy, weaker voice I talked about:
This is a pretty stark contrast from my morning voice and just listening to the two recordings back-to-back is interesting. I don’t know how long the weaker voice will last, my doctor said it can be anywhere from a couple days to a week, or even up to several weeks, everybody responds differently to the different dosages. I never thought I would be happy to have a voice that sounds like it does in the previous sample. By normal standards, it sounds like I have a cold and I should be in bed. But after suffering from spasmodic dysphonia, it feels great to have a voice again. I’ll continue to hope and pray that it improves over the coming days, weeks, and months.